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Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Years
It's been years since I have seen with the eyes I see with now.
I recall words spoken years ago, how my life was to turn out, how its better now...
The footprints behind me are curved, and winding, uncertain undefined.
The rocks, the foot holds I have before me, maybe jagged, I may fall...But my path is certain...my steps are unknown, but they are straight and defined...now...
I had to walk the path behind me to get to what is ahead of me...
Go ahead and judge that which lays behind me, because I am not there, I am here and this wall I will climb you can be a support, or a foot hold... I have to get over to get to the top...
Because I have learned the path behind me is not the same as the one a head of me....
It's been years since I have seen with the eyes I see with now....but I see now.. :)
I recall words spoken years ago, how my life was to turn out, how its better now...
The footprints behind me are curved, and winding, uncertain undefined.
The rocks, the foot holds I have before me, maybe jagged, I may fall...But my path is certain...my steps are unknown, but they are straight and defined...now...
I had to walk the path behind me to get to what is ahead of me...
Go ahead and judge that which lays behind me, because I am not there, I am here and this wall I will climb you can be a support, or a foot hold... I have to get over to get to the top...
Because I have learned the path behind me is not the same as the one a head of me....
It's been years since I have seen with the eyes I see with now....but I see now.. :)
Monday, March 5, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Life out here ..
Waiting could not be more breath taking...if you open to see everything...
This is great to walk and see...
Monday, February 27, 2012
Starting out on Photo Adventures
Making a start out again on doing photography - :) hope it goes well :) Thank you for following :)
Today
Well its been a while and so far I have :
Completed a few courses on my path to my BS. :) with A and B status.. at times this was a work in itself.
I have completed paintings :)
I have restarted my stories :)
I have also worked towards work...
And top of all I have learned :) - Life more than school things, but this is the hardest concept to learn at most times.
This is what some would call minimal progress but I would call a lot given the issues- and person things :) one must deal with life
But my greatest work this year and last has been family, though it will not be remembered as we seldom recall our child hood, what will be recalled is for me, for us. We are together, and time we stop and have moments, and those moments make the Mon-daine worthy of our time. Bless all.
Have new blog also starting at : http://mommasmuzings.wordpress.com/
Completed a few courses on my path to my BS. :) with A and B status.. at times this was a work in itself.
I have completed paintings :)
I have restarted my stories :)
I have also worked towards work...
And top of all I have learned :) - Life more than school things, but this is the hardest concept to learn at most times.
This is what some would call minimal progress but I would call a lot given the issues- and person things :) one must deal with life
But my greatest work this year and last has been family, though it will not be remembered as we seldom recall our child hood, what will be recalled is for me, for us. We are together, and time we stop and have moments, and those moments make the Mon-daine worthy of our time. Bless all.
Have new blog also starting at : http://mommasmuzings.wordpress.com/
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
To Look to a better day...
What is it to look to a better day?
To not see what there is right now.
There is a sky full of stars, some are firsts of anything, as one dies another is born out of the gases left...behind
Crappy start I would think, to be something that was just left over, and discarded.
In the eyes of the lost there is a new begining and hope, but when some one is found they think they have the key, and what is it with out being shared, if you keep it to your self it will be all bust lost again..
For you have lost the look of need, and have found what others have lost.
So I tell you the key before I lose it, To for something that is not what you are finding, you have to look as if you are not there.
To see what is there, you have to stand in the silence, and look again, even if you have to make it silent..
You have to be still to see it..its there..just past where you just looked..keep looking, see the sparkle ? there it is..now go and share it...
To not see what there is right now.
There is a sky full of stars, some are firsts of anything, as one dies another is born out of the gases left...behind
Crappy start I would think, to be something that was just left over, and discarded.
In the eyes of the lost there is a new begining and hope, but when some one is found they think they have the key, and what is it with out being shared, if you keep it to your self it will be all bust lost again..
For you have lost the look of need, and have found what others have lost.
So I tell you the key before I lose it, To for something that is not what you are finding, you have to look as if you are not there.
To see what is there, you have to stand in the silence, and look again, even if you have to make it silent..
You have to be still to see it..its there..just past where you just looked..keep looking, see the sparkle ? there it is..now go and share it...
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
His tears
His eyes fill with tears and he screams out loud, he dose not understand. Why he is forgotten, why the calls are never answered, why he tries so much to be heard.
What is it to every one but those that know him, its acting out, but I see him and will not leave him, for I understand him, and will for ever be there. Even when he screams things he never means, even when the world tells him he alone, I will be here.
What is it to every one but those that know him, its acting out, but I see him and will not leave him, for I understand him, and will for ever be there. Even when he screams things he never means, even when the world tells him he alone, I will be here.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
What I have learned
I am going on a journey...
With out leaving and where..
Where am I going..
I am Going to find my self..
Well you are right there...
I am going far a way ...
Why must you leave...???
I am not leaving...
Where is it that you are going than..???
I am going to Center...To find what no one else can see ..
To go to a place that only God Can Go...
What will you find there??
I will find ME..
But you are right here...
( the logic of a child..and the logic of an Adult...see how we age.....when we where young we never had to leave to find ourselves..but we never knew more than the fact were...here....just here..)
If you want details...well...life will show you them..
With out leaving and where..
Where am I going..
I am Going to find my self..
Well you are right there...
I am going far a way ...
Why must you leave...???
I am not leaving...
Where is it that you are going than..???
I am going to Center...To find what no one else can see ..
To go to a place that only God Can Go...
What will you find there??
I will find ME..
But you are right here...
( the logic of a child..and the logic of an Adult...see how we age.....when we where young we never had to leave to find ourselves..but we never knew more than the fact were...here....just here..)
If you want details...well...life will show you them..
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Breaking..
One can not break that is merly bending..
There is nothing one can not handle that is not formed from pain...
That you can not master, is the inside stronger or weaker... Than take what you have an accept it..
This may mean you change it later and deal now with the inside and not the outside..
Because the outside slowly fades away and what you are left with is what you have become...
Have you weakened and broken when you should have just bent...
Have you given in to things just for now...That scar you...now and forever...
Has this changed you, or have you let it change you...
Can you bend or will you break...and what is the point where you will take the pain of bending over quick death of breaking...
Death of what you ask...death of your self... death of what you are in side...to become some mold of the right person...the cute sexy , stick that can't look you in the eye because she dose not know who she is...
Or are you going to be the woman that knows who she is not because of what some one else says but because she has gone through the hell and had her God with her, and to hell with what others say, there is no need to break your self to be with this world, when you can bend and go through pain with God, knowing that he will be there at the end...and the world will leave you once you break...
What good are you to them once you are just like them.??? They have no use for mirrors...mirrors make you see things they see...a friend taught me its not the mirror I am looking at...its inside of you...
So let Your self bend... and be you or break and be what they want.....
There is nothing one can not handle that is not formed from pain...
That you can not master, is the inside stronger or weaker... Than take what you have an accept it..
This may mean you change it later and deal now with the inside and not the outside..
Because the outside slowly fades away and what you are left with is what you have become...
Have you weakened and broken when you should have just bent...
Have you given in to things just for now...That scar you...now and forever...
Has this changed you, or have you let it change you...
Can you bend or will you break...and what is the point where you will take the pain of bending over quick death of breaking...
Death of what you ask...death of your self... death of what you are in side...to become some mold of the right person...the cute sexy , stick that can't look you in the eye because she dose not know who she is...
Or are you going to be the woman that knows who she is not because of what some one else says but because she has gone through the hell and had her God with her, and to hell with what others say, there is no need to break your self to be with this world, when you can bend and go through pain with God, knowing that he will be there at the end...and the world will leave you once you break...
What good are you to them once you are just like them.??? They have no use for mirrors...mirrors make you see things they see...a friend taught me its not the mirror I am looking at...its inside of you...
So let Your self bend... and be you or break and be what they want.....
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Who Am I
You look at me like am Diffrent an I tell you - I am
I was never made to stand in the crowd and not stand out, I was once there, and sometimes I am there again.
I am not the crowd, the crowd feeds only what they want you to eat.. they tell you what you want to hear. Not what you need.
They will feed you when you are cool with them.
They will not when you show them change.
I am not here for them I am here for something greater than me.
All the crowd wants is now, and dose not know that there is something greater..
God you have blessed me with greater, the crowd tells me tales and reasons with me to change...
To go their way, but you show me something greater,That is in me.
I was never made to stand in the crowd and not stand out, I was once there, and sometimes I am there again.
I am not the crowd, the crowd feeds only what they want you to eat.. they tell you what you want to hear. Not what you need.
They will feed you when you are cool with them.
They will not when you show them change.
I am not here for them I am here for something greater than me.
All the crowd wants is now, and dose not know that there is something greater..
God you have blessed me with greater, the crowd tells me tales and reasons with me to change...
To go their way, but you show me something greater,That is in me.
Words
There used to be a time where every- thing would hurt
An there used to be a time --- where nothing I could say ever mattered...but now...Father you've given me back my words..
I used to think that what they said mattered so much - i put my words on a shelf and hid them a way but today Lord... I have found them...
And here --- I stand looking in to forever with you....
And here L O R D am I what was lost is found... for here am I ...Oh lord...Here am...
An there used to be a time --- where nothing I could say ever mattered...but now...Father you've given me back my words..
I used to think that what they said mattered so much - i put my words on a shelf and hid them a way but today Lord... I have found them...
And here --- I stand looking in to forever with you....
And here L O R D am I what was lost is found... for here am I ...Oh lord...Here am...
Saturday, July 23, 2011
They want.....
They want me to be bitter...
They want me to be sad....
They want me to shutter...
They want me me to be like them..
They want me to conform..
They want me to be like them....
But my God did not make me like them..
He did not get me over this mountain just to fall I the gully...
He came in the darkest of my hours when no one would help..not one would answer..
When every one sad I will help you out... and when you need them where did they go..
This is what they wanted me to stay sad..
They wanted a reason to show sympathy .... and say oh look she is never going to get over what happened...you know what happened( because they where there...just didn't see them)
Because it gives them something to talk about...well here we go... God lets give them something to talk about:)
Because I aint the one they want....lol
http://youtu.be/w7FasupDizg
They want me to be sad....
They want me to shutter...
They want me me to be like them..
They want me to conform..
They want me to be like them....
But my God did not make me like them..
He did not get me over this mountain just to fall I the gully...
He came in the darkest of my hours when no one would help..not one would answer..
When every one sad I will help you out... and when you need them where did they go..
This is what they wanted me to stay sad..
They wanted a reason to show sympathy .... and say oh look she is never going to get over what happened...you know what happened( because they where there...just didn't see them)
Because it gives them something to talk about...well here we go... God lets give them something to talk about:)
Because I aint the one they want....lol
http://youtu.be/w7FasupDizg
Love needed...
So they tell me it is a man I need...
I tell them I have my God, and my father and my son...and a dog...all of which are more loyal.
Than a man.
They tell me I need to have faith in a man..
I tell them I do one has died for me the other saves me and one will soon be one I will do all the above for..
and the dog well he would be loyal til death for us all..
I ask can you find me one of those..
She looks at me and says...no but can you share yours..
I tell you this :
A man that dose not know this man in my life, is not a man it is a boy, he still wants to be taken care of..knowing he should be the one taking care of us...
This man you talk about would never replace my first love, only add to the fact that I am loved, he would not ask me to change, from this love I have had first. To put away the idea of another man out side of him.
In stead he would follow and one day lead, if he did not understand at first he would become the man I am looking for, But know only that God comes first and family. And that there would be no changing this, for when he becomes the center and everything has to be his way and not god's than things become oil and water, something it never meant to be..
So I tell you this If I need a man- I will have my man bring him to me, for that is what he said he would do...A man will leave his father and mother and cling to his wife, not that the wife would leave all she knows to raise a man...Because When God blesses a union there is not one or any that will stand hell to tear it apart. because what he joins all hell wont be able to tear apart..
She looked at me, and shook her head..so this is the man you are waiting for...
I told her no...
This is the man that is waiting for me, for when God shows him, than he will find, and leave all for me. My search is over, and when it started it was so. Because its never me to find him..it is him who finds me..
http://youtu.be/HHlZGeLeTUY
I tell them I have my God, and my father and my son...and a dog...all of which are more loyal.
Than a man.
They tell me I need to have faith in a man..
I tell them I do one has died for me the other saves me and one will soon be one I will do all the above for..
and the dog well he would be loyal til death for us all..
I ask can you find me one of those..
She looks at me and says...no but can you share yours..
I tell you this :
A man that dose not know this man in my life, is not a man it is a boy, he still wants to be taken care of..knowing he should be the one taking care of us...
This man you talk about would never replace my first love, only add to the fact that I am loved, he would not ask me to change, from this love I have had first. To put away the idea of another man out side of him.
In stead he would follow and one day lead, if he did not understand at first he would become the man I am looking for, But know only that God comes first and family. And that there would be no changing this, for when he becomes the center and everything has to be his way and not god's than things become oil and water, something it never meant to be..
So I tell you this If I need a man- I will have my man bring him to me, for that is what he said he would do...A man will leave his father and mother and cling to his wife, not that the wife would leave all she knows to raise a man...Because When God blesses a union there is not one or any that will stand hell to tear it apart. because what he joins all hell wont be able to tear apart..
She looked at me, and shook her head..so this is the man you are waiting for...
I told her no...
This is the man that is waiting for me, for when God shows him, than he will find, and leave all for me. My search is over, and when it started it was so. Because its never me to find him..it is him who finds me..
http://youtu.be/HHlZGeLeTUY
Friday, July 22, 2011
His love
Funny when I wana cry....dance when I wana be sad...smile for no reason..
Finds me when I hide, says there is more in me than in the mirror...says that forever is never long enough..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjhCEhWiKXk
He believes in me when others say I should change..he says if i want to ... never have to...would rather I not..
There is a look in his eyes that says he means his words...there is a place I never thought I would find, when you are never looking when you stop searching you find it...
His love...xoxoxoxoxo
Finds me when I hide, says there is more in me than in the mirror...says that forever is never long enough..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjhCEhWiKXk
He believes in me when others say I should change..he says if i want to ... never have to...would rather I not..
There is a look in his eyes that says he means his words...there is a place I never thought I would find, when you are never looking when you stop searching you find it...
His love...xoxoxoxoxo
Love
What is this thorn in my side you have given me? It is a memory to carry with me always, of a love that never was.
What is this pain I fell when I think of trust and love again? The lesson you taught be about love
Sad is the day that I recall the memories, the fear that took me, the forgiveness that washes it a way…
I will forgive you love, but I will not forget, for to fool me once is your doing to fool me again, that is me…
So love remember the memories and know that I thank you for the lessons.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Past
What is letting go? What is forgiving but not forgetting??
It is peace the slow peace that comes when the storm has not yet passed, but you fell the start of the rain..you know it has to happen..it has to come for you to grow.
It has to flood to prove you can hold back the tides, that the nights have to be lonely, the days have to be filled with something other than tears..
You have to stand up, you have to place the rock or what was a way.
There is no rock to stand on if you don't
there is times you will sink, there are times you will be utterly alone.. but what is this?
This is the truth, you have to be alone to know the one father, the one man that will never hurt you or yours.
He is ever there, and you have to be alone to see that he will be the one holding back the rain when it floods, and he will shelter you from the flood.
You must know this that he will let it rain, he will let the floods come, he will not shelter you till you ask him to.
He will not interfere where he is not the center, he will not stand guard over something that is not fully his.
You have to ask him to take it from you, but know that it is on his time, not yours.
He will bless you with seasons where you will have all you need and never see it, there will be some where you will be happy as ever for no reason besides you have found the one that he has planed for you to find, but this is all on his time not yours.
So when you want to do things your way know that there is a better way. Know that God's way is the one sure way to have the best seasons of life ever, even if its in a storm, you can still find the will to dance. So bless you all. :)
It is peace the slow peace that comes when the storm has not yet passed, but you fell the start of the rain..you know it has to happen..it has to come for you to grow.
It has to flood to prove you can hold back the tides, that the nights have to be lonely, the days have to be filled with something other than tears..
You have to stand up, you have to place the rock or what was a way.
There is no rock to stand on if you don't
there is times you will sink, there are times you will be utterly alone.. but what is this?
This is the truth, you have to be alone to know the one father, the one man that will never hurt you or yours.
He is ever there, and you have to be alone to see that he will be the one holding back the rain when it floods, and he will shelter you from the flood.
You must know this that he will let it rain, he will let the floods come, he will not shelter you till you ask him to.
He will not interfere where he is not the center, he will not stand guard over something that is not fully his.
You have to ask him to take it from you, but know that it is on his time, not yours.
He will bless you with seasons where you will have all you need and never see it, there will be some where you will be happy as ever for no reason besides you have found the one that he has planed for you to find, but this is all on his time not yours.
So when you want to do things your way know that there is a better way. Know that God's way is the one sure way to have the best seasons of life ever, even if its in a storm, you can still find the will to dance. So bless you all. :)
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